Why does it never fail that when you start to have a "pat on the back moment" because you happened to say something extraordinarily profound in the exact moment it was called for, you almost instantly have to eat your own words? Really God?!?! REALLY?!?! Is this fun for you? I'm not saying that I don't see the irony, I mean sometimes, who can miss it? I'm just sayin' I don't appreciate it.
Today I had a talk with a student about having control of his actions. That people who don't control their actions and behaviors wind up doing a lot of things they never wanted to do in the first place. We also talked about how there are a lot of idiots out there. Believe it or not, there are more than just the 3 or 30 in the classroom. And there's not a thing you can do about any one's actions but your own. So, because there are always going to be people who do things that you don't agree with, it's important to have control of your own actions so that you can live with yourself at the end of the day....blah, blah, blah. Believe me it sounded profound at the time...now, maybe not so much.
Actually, to be honest, it DID feel like one of those out-of-body-Holy-Spirit-talking-through-you moments. Now I'm starting to think that it might have been more for my benefit than my student's. I'm pretty sure he's not sitting at home ruminating over my words of wisdom...
The last few days I've been MAD!!!! The last time I blogged I was mad about some personal things, but yesterday and today I've been upset for other people. I don't spend much time being angry, so I kind of don't know what to do with myself to have been on a three day binge. I think what frustrates me the most is the feeling of powerlessness. I want to DO something! I want everyone to know how wronged these people have been. I want their offenders that I previously respected to be publically rebuked. Mostly, I want people to do what is right and to have integrity and to stop trying to cover up their own mistakes at the expense of others. Is it really so much to ask?
I read today that the basic formula for a story is conflict, crisis, resolution. And that conflict without resolution is whining. I pretty much agree with that, but I'm struggling to find a resolution. If it's true that I only have control over my own actions, that doesn't necessarily mean that a resolution will be met. The question is, what do you do when you feel like you can't do anything?
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