Be My One Thing

So...I'm new to this blogging thing. Perhaps I will be more consistant with this than I have been in the past with journaling. I have to say that I've always liked the idea of journaling more than the act of it. Most of the time when I write in a journal I think about someone reading it someday. In reality, as far as I know, I'm the only person that's ever read them. I have to say that they have been less than inspiring. I'm always kind of embarrassed at the words on the page that bear my hand writing, and yet here I am using more words. Except now, it's not in the privacy of a journal that collects dust on my night stand, but the public and possibly perilously vast internet. But, ready or not, here we go...

It's not really an uncommon thing. You hear a song on the radio and it instantly throws you back in time; the photo album in your head comes alive and you're immersed in a memory. Growing up my dad played a lot of different music so this is something I'm fairly familiar with. There's one song in particular though that often rings through my head on it's own. It's an old Rich Mullins song called "My One Thing." The lyrics are below but the basic gyst of the song is a desire to put God first in everything and above all else, to come to the true, soul deep realization that I don't need anything more than what God provides.

I'm not sure if it's a side effect of living in a fallen world, if it's a discontent spirit, or if it's just bad habits but I seem to struggle on a continual basis to remember that the God of my childhood Sunday School lessons is truly taking care of me. Of course I know it to be true in my head and there seems to be limitless divine reminders, but I'm always returning to a state of worry. Worry about the future, finances, about family, career, about lonlieness and anything else that I can't control. The truth is, though, that most of the things I worry about are not necessarily eternal. I get caught up in my life and I lose sight of God's love and purpose for my life. I can't help but believe that if I ever truly understood the depth and height and width of His love that faith would come easier. So my prayer continues to be, "Be my one thing."

My One Thing
Everybody I know says they need just one thing
And what they really mean is that they need just one thing more
And everybody seems to think they've got it coming
Well I know that I don't deserve You
Still I want to love and serve You more and more
You're my one thing

Save me from those things that might distract me
Please take them away and purify my heart
I don't want to lose the eternal for the things that are passing
'Cause what will I have when the world is gone
If it isn't for the love that goes on and on

You're my one thing You're my one thing
And the pure in heart shall see God

Who have I in Heaven but You Jesus?
And what better could I hope to find down here on earth?
I could cross the most distant reaches Of this world,
But I'd just be wasting my time
'Cause I'm certain already, I'm sure I'd find You're my one thing